So, it finally happened, that big moment! 

Hello Gates Hall, how are you doing today? 

I have these lovely little residents moving in and I couldn't be more excited. 

Did I mention that I am excited? 

I just sit in awe at how grateful I am to be here. 

So it's finally here! 

It came! 

It's 12:15, 12:20 according to my computer clock, 

which I did not, until recently, discover was set five minutes fast. 

Thanks memory, that was a good thing to forget. 

I believe that 12:15 calls for honesty especially when I have to work in less than eight hours. 

I am terrified about being velcro. 

I'm terrified that I found the kind of love that everyone talks about. 

The kind of love where you laugh together at the silly things, 

where please and thank you matter. 

And where your heart is worried because you wondering if they'll be safe driving your car out to a ward camp out in the middle of no where Payson. 

The person that you have tickle fights with and laugh, 

and cry because you realize you are so happy, 

 that all you want to do is whisper how much you love them. 

That for once in your life, 

you've found someone who reminds you that there is a certain happy in the world, 

a happiness that is silly and ridiculous and blissful. 

That you keep just falling in love with them every day, 

not all at once, 

and certainly not completely quite yet. 

It's a like velcro, 

both sides are different, 

but every day is reminder that life is better when you have each other, 

to hold onto, 

to be stuck too. 

And well, 

it's just all so confusing, 

and well I'm terrified. 

Because frankly, because I've never really been velcro. 

I've always been a shoelace, tied together, but not enough where it couldn't be undone without to much pain or effort. 

This velcro thing....it's scares me. 

12:29 - it calls for bedtime.

12:34 computer time.  

I know it's a box, 

with grey and white lines, 

and some words or so. 

But you know what those highlighted blue ones mean?!?

......it means I've completed all the summer assignments, 

for

BEING AN R.A.

I am so excited for this, I look forward to those seventy-three girls coming my way, 

in just over a month. 

The countdown is coming, 

it's coming with fishing line. 

It comes with tags. 

It's coming with tissues paper, 

boxes and bags. 

And I'm puzzled, and I'm puzzled,

and tickled blue too!

My RA homework is finished, 

and I'm so excited for you....well....erm, them. 

So, tomorrow begins another ten-hour shift at Vivint, but you see there is so, so so, 

SO, very much more to look forward too. 

This guy makes everything about life wonderful. 

Not to say that I hate life or anything, I love a lot about it. 

There are just some things, well let's say that I don't appreciate as much as I should. 

So what he does is he takes all those under appreciated things of mine, and makes them better. 

For instance expressions, or elbows, or exercise.
And well just Emma, he makes me better.
And maybe all my bloggers out there are getting sick of my silly posts about Stephen.
But, right now that's all there is.
Is Stephen and Summer and....well Account Creation (yay Vivint!)
But,
really,
I guess it comes down to this,
as Buddy the Elf said it best,
"I'm in love! I'm in love! And I don't care who knows it"

After taking my cold hand in his hands, 

(ice cream does that to a girl you know)

While he cradles my hand in one he taks the other and wraps his little finger around mine. 

It's his way of saying, I promise to love you as long as you love me. 

It's why I love holding his hand so much. 

And I remember why I love him. 

Inside, it is unknown. 

Most days I feel like an outsider in my own skin. 

Alienated from my own life.

Learning so much, that all of this seems so strange and unfamiliar. 

My body spends so much time trying to wake itself up, reality seems far away. 

......I'm waiting for it just, check.

I keep hoping for that reality check. 

I think it's about admitting to myself that, 

"it is okay to feel how I feel, it is okay to just move forward"

I think it's all I've ever wanted was to be an insider. 

I want to wake up to reality and find out that it is okay to be a kid, to have adventures, to take fun pictures with a group of crazy girls, to do something outside of my comfort, to laugh and not be afraid or forced to laugh, to not have to grow up to fast, to be a young soul, to wake up and just take my own way, not having to report to anyone because I feel like I have to do so, 

to not feel like I am pretending to exist in this life of mine. 

I think I am living someone else's dream. 

I want to get lost in an airport and be all alone. 

I want to fly to a different country, sleep in a tent and wake up to an African sunrise. 

I want to raft down a river with a people I don't know and not have to belong. 

I want to take a road trip with my best friend. 

I want to live a life and not have to worry about all that I left behind. 

I want to be a free spirit, blowing wild and free. 

The fact of the matter is what I want, is probably not what He wants. 

It's a tough thing taking your life, all your wants, or dreams and just sort of handing them over.  

I won't tell you it isn't hard. 

I will tell you it's worth it. 

Today the question was asked, 

"Have you considered giving up Africa?"

My heart got all fluttery, my eyes started to water, and of all the things I didn't know if I could give up that. 

So I'm doing this thing next semester - it's called being an RA. 

Yippee! I couldn't be more excited! 

I look forward to meeting those seventy-three girls, pretty much every day. 

On the other hand I get to spend all summer preparing for it, 

which at times is stressful. 

So these little babies are a decoration demo, 

so if you come and visit me in the fall you may find a few of these. 

BECAUSE THEY PASSED

and they are incredibly easy to make. 

Total cost of one of these babies: $1.08. 

Wanna learn how to make them yourself? 

For the Tutorial - CLICK ME!

"Mind the Gap"

It's a phrase used on trains when crossing from one train car to another. 

When I look back over the past year of my life, I think I forgot about the gap. 

I was going from one point in my life to another, 

with the high speed commotion of everyone else's life happening around me. 

When I realized that gap was there, that I was standing on the middle connectors of the train car wibbling and wobboling around trying to figure heads or tails of which way I was going. 

After one crazy first year of college, sorting out family issues, and finally being "official" 

(I don't really understand this official thing, do I need a license to date someone or something? It's just a decision you make together)

Well, 

I am now 

HERE in life. 

Yes, I remember it's there, but it doesn't bother me as much.

.....and I don't really mind the gap anymore. 

I took a five week hiatus, but I'm back now. 

I can't exactly explain those five weeks - so I guess I'll just do it in photographs. 

They say a picture is worth a thousand words, and those words are all I have right now. 

.....

After watching General Conference, having my favorite scripture quoted twice in that conference and after reading in Ether this morning it solidified my thoughts on family. I want one. There was a time in my life where I was set out to be a cat lady. After learning more about my divine potential as a daughter of God, I thought about this family. General Conference had a lot of talks about teaching your families well, I am hoping that someday when Heavenly Father trusts me with his own little spirits that I may teach them well. On that note, yesterday afternoon I made this, (after being inspired by some Pinterest quotes as well). This is based upon the things from the The Family: A Proclamation to the World that successful marriages and families are based upon. It has also taken a few things that I love and think make my own life beautiful. What better a life than to have one that is based upon gospel principles? I cannot wait to have my own little family, that I may have the opportunity to teach many about this gospel that I love with all of my heart. That without fail my Savior has not let me walk in this life alone. And, at least I can say thank you by raising a family in truth and righteousness. 

So, that is just a few short thoughts on families, hope you enjoy! 

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me. 

$7 Wal-Mart hats keep me entertained. 

I can't wait until summer when I can take lots of photos. 

Anybody up for an adventure?

Summer come sooner please. 

There was this one time there was this crazy snow storm....on a Sunday. 

Well, the snowstorm wasn't that crazy at all. 

But the idea came after I had hunted down our kitchen table that went missing from the elevator. 

...just in case you were wondering our table ended up in the basement, because some cute girls in my ward and my wonderful roommate were having a tea party in it. 

Anyway, after that random adventure I thought, what could be more fun than temple hopping.

I am from Utah County, and there are so many temples within like an hours drive of me. 

Idea for summer: drive and do baptisms for all these temples in one day. 

Could I do it? I think I could. 

And then take some beautiful pictures? Yup, deal!

So I went temple hopping with my best friend, it kinda felt like a mini-adventure. 

I mean really, it was SO much fun. 

Driving around talking about the gospel. 

So we made it to four temples, Provo isn't pictured 

and by the time we got to the Oquirrh Mountain Temple is was much too snowy,

and I had to be back for a wonderful stake Relief Society fireside. 

(Am I really old enough to be going to Relief Society? Hmmm....)

 

So I took some lovely pictures of The House of the Lord. 

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. 

This is my religion, my rock, and the thing the keeps me smiling even on the bad days. 

It is a gospel of hope, salvation, something greater than just this life. 

Have questions? Comment or visit lds.org or mormon.org to learn more.

As course as always enjoy the photos....

Do you ever have those moments where your words mean nothing but your expression says it all?Think about the power of human connection, reading the faint smile lines or the pain in someone's eyes. In today's society I feel like we lose that, we lose that style that elegant way of communicating with another human being and are left with simply letters on a screen to say things such as: I love you or I miss you. When the way I look at you is simply enough for me to say it. Communication, it's more than just words.  

It's 3:37am.  

In the silence of being lost in the deepest things.

This is the place I don't feel alone. 

This is the place I call home. 

I was tired, my soul warn down. 

I am fighting a battle, 

one within the confines of my own self. 

Sleep is simply restlessness. 

And though my eyes grow weary, 

I finally feel awake.  

It's 3:41am,

the sheets are a vacant. 

I am not alone. 

Left with my own photos. 

Time passes slowly when you're in love.

I have a confession to make. 

I feel like no one comments anymore and have determined well then, 

I must write what the readers want to read! 

Yes, this is what I have come too :) 

So take my survey? Tell me what you'd like to see! 

I know, easy, right?

Perfect. 

Thank you! 

I like sock buns yes I do. 

I like sock buns, how about you?

Seriously, this is the best kept secret. How did I miss this all of my life?

Roll your hair around a sock! Genius! Hello new use for my old socks. 

So I'm enjoying life at home, with my sock bun and my winter wonderland. 

That's all for now. 

Thank you Pinterest :)