Reruns, Rewrites and Preflights - Volume 2

On the first day of January I got stuck in the snow at my dear friend Sydney's house. I think that was the foreshadowing of the many things I would learn from many awkward moments this year. Stuck in the snow, and had to be pushed out with her whole family behind me. Tomorrows always seemed surreal as I went day to day after day of school both at Timpview and at UVU. Learned some C++ programming, found out Unicorns are real in Scotland, I took a photo of the craters on the moon, I spent some long nights at the hospital with my nephew, and I lived without a heater for several days. I wished on 9:58 even though it was nothing special and with a looming request of -3 degrees on the last day of January another month of my life went by.

In February that looming -3 degrees changed to a cheery 2 degrees. I conquered many "baby butt explosions" as I affectionately named them, and even had the privilege of getting home from school at 2:36pm. Odd. Yes. I spent 70 total hours at school in one week. I was first and foremost on finding out I got into BYU. I ended up in Kelsey's dreams. President Obama won a grammy for reading a book. I got shin splints while prepping for my spring triathlon. It threw off my groove. I took photos of my best friend who I found out was moving far away. I still didn't get asked to Valentine's but had a party instead, which two people came too. It was a little sad but days get better. I feared I would always be alone. Fear though steals your todays and I tried to let it go. I discovered Zumba, college admittance joy, strangers who save my favorite scarfs, campus housing dilemmas, TRON, Toy Story 3 and Forever Sunshine. And February though the month of love ended with some sunshine in my soul and in my lotion from Bath and Body Works. 

March marked $18 for 18 years. Not only was it my birthday, but we had no school & it was Free Pancake day at IHOP. I didn't really feel older, but really, who does? I intend on staying a child forever. I started getting excited for the next part of my life: college. My nephew rode vacuums, I rode the Med Tech crazy train. I had dress dilemmas. Smoortser is restrooms backwards, and makes me smile every time I look at the word. I wrote papers, attacked a cold with tissues and discussed whether being ugly is unethical. And with that note, April brought a whole new perspective. 

I rushed home from school to watch Arthur at 3pm almost every day I could in April. I finished my baby (the yearbook), sometime after 2am. I biked, and I biked and I biked some more. "Holy Smoke, Holy Smoke, a Swordfish" happened, oh all those smiles. I played ultimate frisbee for the first time, failed miserably, but it was fun. I played at a park with Bekah and Emily. Oh those memories, oh so much fun. I survived UVU graduation. Thank You diploma #1, oddly before I even graduated from high school. I talked to Danny after school on drives home. "Friday, Friday" came out, and then the mass population including myself began to hate Fridays just because of Rebecca Black's song. I took senior photos for Taralea, they're beautiful. My phone and I played an intense game of hide and seek, I was it. After more then 28 hours of searching, phone status: found. 

May was the month of let-downs and life lessons. It started with finding out that I wasn't giving a speech at graduation, but hey - I was giving the pledge! How many people can say they gave the pledge in front of a group of 2,000+ people. I can! I saved a word at the, you can too! Got 15 orders in the to-go line from Cafe rio. Put together my graduation announcements. The Yearbooks got here and they were beautiful. I found it is really never a good idea to say those three simple words, "I like you" -- because sometimes people don't say it back. I told someone to never fall in love with me. That plan didn't work out so well. I studied for 7 hours for the AP World test, it took God 7 days to create the world - did I really think I could memorize all that happened in it in less time? I went to Senior Ball, it was a blast. My TV at my house broke, sometimes you just have to take the let downs and look at the positive - I could now watch my TV in 3D! I played Timpview Senior Assassination. And then the greatest moment of all: I graduated! And at the end of May I held hands with the boy I've always been in love with, after a tickle fight - ah, what a cute moment for me. 

June was a month of adventure. I missed, I laughed, I loved, and I placed at Nationals. I wanted to punch someone in the face for the first time in my life. I went to Disneyland, again. (How many times would I do this?) I discovered that toasted PB&J sandwiches always make you feel better. I took some of my favorite photographs ever, so beautiful. And June was full of thoughtfulness and then it went to July. 

July started with making a page for my photography business. I went to the zoo, saw some lights, did some fun stuff. We had a 4th of July party with all of my family + Shadowbrook. Guess who had more people there and the neighborhood party? Yup, my family. Loved my sister talks of July "any potential Marriage candidate you should be comfortable making out with." I had nice drives with my friend Kristy Rich. I found out I got a "3" on my AP World Test. I went to see the final Harry Potter. Netflix categories made me smile about "feel-good" talking animals. I went to my first Rodeo, ya for Days of '47 with Dania. Men who ran like penguins at Gold Gym's also made me laugh. A lot. I mean, every Tuesday didn't become a habit just so that man could make me laugh. I cleaned out my room for college, knowing that I no longer had a real home to come home too. And at the end of the month I was sick, with my two major food groups: liquids and soup. 

In August I went to Bear Lake for the first time. I got really excited for college to start. College, it was really complicated. I talked to my roommates. I was a goof duck with my nephew Peyton. I also went to Disneyland with just my mom, it was lovely. I took Aubrey's Senior Photos. I moved in my dorms. I cooked my first meal, and my friend Adam went on his mission. I started talking to that boy I loved again, and I found out that he was a man. Three hours of a phone call and I made it very clear that I was more than just an option. With that attitude I was whisked away into September.

I had lovely times with my roommates and found out that "RAWR" is how you say I love you in dinosaur. I ate $5 pizza with Allen and friends. Oh how I love rainstorms. I went to BYU football games and had adventures watching movies in the mountains. I went to my first BYU football games as a student and basically froze half the time, always leaving earlier than I should have. I hiked the "Y" for the second time in my life, even though I live in Provo. People popped out of the woodwork that randomly knew me at BYU and then came October, oh October. 

Let's get the big deal of this month over so I can keep writing, I kissed a wonderful man. I did it, I kissed him. That boy I held hands with back in May, the one I was always in love with. I kissed him, the Journalism lab. Okay, and on to the next thing now that all your minds are wondering. Just keep wondering. I took the "I'm Beautiful" challenge at BYU. I found out about soul mates, took a large box of doughnuts to the testing center, and I found out that saying I'm allergic to 2-4-isobutylphenylpropionic acid sounds so much cooler than saying I'm allergic to ibuprofen. I went to Disneyland once again, and had a blast with my sister and her new husband. I started being in a relationship with the HBLL. I handed out the ward newsletter, my baby in the ward, and at the end of the month goggle pretty much made my day. 

I did my first Facebook fast in November. I took notes in PDBio 120 with my cell phone instead of paying attention. I did lots of Chemistry, ate a lot of food and had a lot more food. I realized that when your heart hurts, it means you loved. We found out about our new apartment, I spent four hours and forty-two minutes on a Chemistry test. I then went off to Thanksgiving break. I wish I could tell Wal-mart that having a black friday sale starting at 10pm on Thursday is not having a black friday sale, it's having a sale on Thanksgiving. I had a wonderful Thanksgiving with all of my family. I laid awake wishing for things and thinking about life that night and all the things I was thankful for. The next day my favorite flowers arrived at my door from that same wonderful man I fell in love with. I also fell in love with Missionary Mondays. And every day I spent dumblin', even after our kitchen floor flooded. 

December was kind of had a few death weeks, let's be honest. I made breakfast, I went on a few dates. Someone got up in front of the temple on a cutie little date and asked me their girlfriend. Old fashioned? Yup. I thought it was the cutest thing. I made breakfasts. I had finals, basically I survived this month. On the last day of December I spent it taking a nap, then waking up and making more resolutions. 

In the end I hoped to go off to far places, and I did. California. Not so far, but just far enough. I imagined doing things differently, and I found love comes when you least expect it. I was healthier, but I didn't do so well with saving money. I found adventure that's for sure. I graduated, I found scholarship money, I went off to college, I never was a tutor for project read, I wrote letters to far off places and I'm still working on rewriting that room cleaning thing (that's tomorrow's project). 

And so it was indeed a one-on-one experience. Thank you 2011!


I imagine I could do some things differently. I think I will be better with you. I think I will grow and love and learn and laugh a whole lot. I hope in the end it all works out. 

I want to be healthier. Bring on the diets and the lifestyle changes. Yes, that means running again, hello my love. 

Money, well I finally have something to save for. 
Africa, Summer 2013 -- here I come! I'm so very excited. 

I want to find adventure more adventure. I will go off on an Alaskan Cruise, back to Disneyland and Hawaii too! 

I'll let love in, let it grow, and maybe know we'll leave that for another blog post. But, I hope. Maybe later. 

You know most, what I want to be better. 
I want myself to be better. 
So here is to a better Emma 

I know I will go to far off places. Hello Alaska in May!

I know I will find a new major sometime in between and that I will not have to take Calculus (I hope!)

After that, I'm just hoping to learn and grow and love and live and get a real job for once. 

Live. Love. Learn. Grow.
And just another Hello
to 2012!

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.