-33 Posts in Drafts-
one liners from the unfinished life of Emma

Oh hi there, again. 
I realize it's been awhile. 
After some recent requests to post on my blog again, 
I thought I should dismiss the myths. 
I have been blogging, or trying to blog at least. 
I have 33 posts in drafts. What this means to you,
 is that I have a whole lot of unfinished thoughts. 
On what? Well I have come to the conclusion to share my sporadic thoughts and make a short compilation of unfinished blog posts, just one liners that were almost inspirational. 

Hacking, Spam and Facebook... I believe the original meanings were somewhere along the lines of cutting something up, some disgusting processed "claimed to be meat" that came in a can, and a book about faces for 2 year olds. 

you will always have some excuse not to live your life ~ chuck palahniuk [thank you Mallory]

 We're like romance to-go. So keep it in a box, and let's make it our secret?  Deal? Let's not make this complicated. 

 These are friends, not food. Or am I being spiritually fed? Are they food? Could you coordinate your missionary farwells, puh-lease? Church for 8 hours every Sunday leaves little time for any other type of food consuming time. 

 I'm a quitter, but really I'm not. Quitter: A person who gives up easily.I wouldn't call this giving up easily -- I'VE TRIED.

I'm not a mean person, but this isn't fair. Basically I'd qualify it as torture. So, mwahahaha, that was my vindictive laugh. 

I hate untying heart strings, It's hurts like nothing else. I'm waiting for Wuthering Heights. 

You let me, just be me and I cannot pinpoint how we met, because I think you've always been apart of me. 
Even if no one sees, even if I'll never say it out loud. No chance, no way, I won't say I'm in love.

Promising to send a missionary a cupcake? It's a big commitment, kinda like marriage, but not. 

What does he fill so much of his time up with? What is he so afraid of? What is he hiding? Is it so awful that he had to make me feel ashamed of who I was? This isn't right.  

I've never been so afraid in my life. It's just an envelope. What am I so afraid of? Heavenly Father will take care of me. Heavenly Father always will. I haven't even opened the envelope and I'm crying.

Every relationship requires a meet cute, I am now in the business of creating the best meet cutes ever. 
My husband and I are gonna have a really, really, good meet cute. I'm sure of it. 

It's all so volatile, everything in front of me. I don't like it at all. 

Pancakes & Waffles, when did breakfast foods become descriptions for hand holding?

So, five hours later....and -BAM- some cupcakes. Ta-Dah. 

"Spock the vulcan retriever! See Spock live long and slobber!-Full House

Perfectly wrong right turns. Perfectly right wrong turns. Missed road signs and speed limits changing.

 I wish things were different. I wonder sometimes if you wish they were also, do you?
The thing is, things are as they are. And I'm going to be happy that they are. 

Density. How humanity defines-thickness, weight, quality, complexity, stupidity. Sometimes I wonder why you can't see it....

Fail again. Fail better. 

Here is what I think. If you're a boy and you think a girl is cute. Why don't you tell her she looks pretty that day? This isn't rocket science boys, it's dating, come on. 

In short, I have returned to the blogosphere. Hope you enjoyed this! Comments are always welcome and much appreciated.  So, later, life update? 
Yes, followers, yes. 

[Disclaimer: for some of you that may have noticed that there are only 21 one liners here, this is because some a) were just images, b) were must to confidential to share at this time, or c) have turned into some evolved version of another post on this blog]

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
 By: Emma Marie.

[insert clicheé caption about love here]

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.

The Harmony-seeking Idealist

There is this site it's called ipersonic.com, 
my dearest friend Hannah posted about it. 
I thought, hey wonder what personality type I am?
I AM the Harmony-seeking Idealist. 
Does this sound like me to you?

Let's just pull out a few
~an abundance of thoughts and feelings
~often become so immersed in a task that they forget everything else around them
~very strong insight into human nature and enjoy dealing with people
~ ability to see something totally outside [their] paradigm 
~people are in the center of your thoughts
~adroitly motivate others to make positive changes in their lives

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me. 
By: Emma Marie.

i wish you loved this girl. right here.

Just another girl in a twirly dress, 
but she is different,
 different from all the rest. 
From the tips of her toes
 to the top of her head,
from her curves that go round
 to the words that she said.
She's happy to
be just who she is
and not care who knows it 
Why wouldn't you love the Emma who shows it?
So off to this and that and in between, 
just being the girl who she believes. 
She wishes, she dreams, that you loved her too. 
Cause she knows the secrets, 
of the fairytales 
and the old lady who lived in the shoe. 
It was that in all the things that could go bad, 
you love yourself 
and find the glad. 

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.


things I will do this summer
Make a mixed CD of my favorite songs and title it "The soundtrack of my life"

Swing on the swings at the park
Thank you Hannah. Thank you, thank you Hannah.  

Make popsicles in your freezer

Buy some crayons and a coloring book

Read Eat.Pray.Love.
Create a floor plan of my dream home
Yes, I did. I did. It's beautiful. Keep coming, I'll post it when I tweak it some more...and erase the stray pencil marks from a certain nephew. 

Go have a Picnic 
"Bike Date" - Aubs, this was genius. 
Create a favorite things in Provo scavenger hunt

Go on a date or two or three
I'm up to five! Ya. Scratch that out a few times.
Go stargazing with my app
Oh Hannah, dare I say sprinklers? ha ha ha 

Buy lemonade from one of the neighborhood kids
Gatorade & lemonade mixture minus the sugar. 
That's what Kristy and I got for a dollar.

Dance in the rain
Oh mix and mingle, thanks Nate for the dance :)

Have a bubble photo shoot

Do something whimsical 
Bourne....remember that one day....in June. 

Have a relaxation session 

Spend a day reading in Barnes & Noble

Buy a $5 pizza and find someone to share it with 
Needless to say, they may or may not received the whole pizza. oops. 

Bake cupcakes and decorate them

Go bowling

Go to DI at least twice more and get some thrifted clothing
Green Tank + Green Sweater + Purple Skirt = $7
Lick an entire ice cream cone 
After institute. Small Macey's cone, oh what an adventure! 
Thank you Mike, Matt, Ryan, Aaron, Caleb, Johnny, Andrew and Kristy.
It was 50 cents well spent, 
also tongue numbness. 
It's a side effect of so much lickage. 

SO, I've still got some things to do :) but so far, I've enjoyed making memories. Anyone want to make some more with me? 
Oh summer, we have a serious love/hate relationship.

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.

Update. ON. Emma

Today I met a guy, 
he was a writing a story in a cafe. 
He wasn't drinking coffee, just a soda. 
He could be a brilliant writer. 
I saw him play with his nieces and nephews 
as he whisked me off from scene to scene. 
He had this junkie little car - that matched mine. 
Really, he was the most attractive guy I've ever met.
His name was Ethan. 
Doesn't Ethan & Emma just sound cute together?
He was  perfect, 
I just wished he could've asked for my number 
it's too bad that it's just a movie.....

-- And then it hit me.

It's that awkward moment when you realize this movie was produced by your roommates father. 

Can I just tell you how excited I am for the fall?
My roommates are the coolest. 
I'm so very ,very excited! 
Can it just be August already?

In other news, I'm considering taking a job, 

the only thing is that it's a Timpview. 
Say what? I'd go back....I know, strange. 
Even stranger, just think I'd be FACULTY there. 
All those free food announcements?
Yeah. I'd get to go to those. 
Weird? But it's a job. 
So I need to pray about it, 
it's part-time 
and kinda perfect for me. 

Finished Danielle's and Garrett's photographs. 
I love them. 
They are the cutest together,
I'm really excited to do more photo shoots. 
So if anyone is interested, 
$30/hour of shooting time, 
20 edits guaranteed. 
1-2 week delivery of photos on CD
Edits and Originals included.  
Just search Emma Marie Photography on Facebook, 
or send me an email to photography.emmamarie@gmail.com.
Seriously, I would love to capture the memories of your life!
Contact me for special event pricing. 

Life in the single's ward is fabulous, to say the least. 
I'm kinda sad to say, but only four more Sundays. 
It's a travesty. I sorta like this ward, 
I imagine I'll love my next one just as much. 
FHE though. Gotta love it. 
Frust Pizza anyone? 
This is Mona Fruit-a-licious Lisa 

 Mix & Mingle? Munch & Mingle? Munch & Mix?
That thing on Sunday nights, it's amazing!
Plus having an excuse to look cute :)
Really, I had a super awesome time
-- it started off kinda lame. 
But then there were a few guys, 
dancing in the rain 
(did you feel the rain drops?)
And talking to Nathalie. 
Life is good. 
I really need to go to more activities. 
Institute tonight? I'm so very excited!

Speaking of exciting, let's list some things I'm excited for:  
-Going on some dates
-Photographs of the Provo Skyline 
-Three C Words: Cooking, Cupcakes, Car
-Babysitting the Kiddos on Friday
-HARRY freakin' POTTER (midnight showing WOOOO!)
-VT: Visiting Teaching
-Completing my Summer List

Stay tuned! They'll be more adventures to come :)

[p.s. Photo Credit of Christopher Gorham  and Timpview High School can be found here, Thank You!]

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
 By: Emma Marie.

Four Word Phrases

There are four word phrases that I dream of hearing, 
"Guess what? You passed!"
"Will you marry me?"
"I love you too"
.....and the greatest of all.....
"The kids are asleep"
ah babysitting you just got so much easier, thank you small kiddos for falling asleep

Photo By: Trinity Reynolds. 

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
 By: Emma Marie.

Chop It or Stop It

Last time I did this
55.6% said you loved it & 38.9% said you want more of it. 

SO -- here I am again, letting you pick something, 
this one slightly scarier. 
I'm off to college in a month, 
[woah. it just keeps getting closer and closer]
Among other things I'm doing to get ready --
I'm trying to decide if I want to start fresh, 
thus the question, 
Should I 

[cut it short to about the length shown in the photos]
 or should I 
[love it and rock the lovely long hair]
Click to go to Survey Monkey, 

[voting closes August 1st....and then I'll post some photos, to let you know! Stay tuned]

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.


And this is the moment you all should be looking at me, 
and say to yourselves...
Emma you need a life. Because, really, I do. 
[p.s. If you click on the photo it makes it bigger, then use Ctrl & + together zooms in]
Ya. So, here is the story, 
I found a flashlight in my bathroom as I was getting ready for bed - 
I thought. Hey. I wonder if it light painting looks cool in a mirror. 
(yes, world I was going to go light painting tonight until it started raining. welcome rain. welcome.)
SO......summer is getting the better of me, 
I'm running out of ideas. 
          .....what was the word again?
Oh ideas. 
I am very excited for tomorrow though, 
just for one experiment in particular, 
but time for bed now. 
Tomorrow. Come Sooner. 

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.

I don't know if you know....BUT....

I have this photography business, 
and I made a Facebook page for it :) 
You probably should go like it. 
please. thank you. 

--But this is just another autobiography, examining the prosopography of me.
By: Emma Marie.

I am [not] a doormat.


I am NOT a doormat. 
I'm not a fair weather friend. 
I'm not a second choice.
I am not perfect.  
I'm not an option you can just keep open. 
I'm not a  "leave a message after the beep".
I'm not that girl. 
So, Let's just make one thing clear here -
this is not how it works. 
I will bend over backwards - 
all the time for people. 
But, I can't just have you be my priority 
if I'm only your option.  
I can't solve your life problems, 
if you won't ever hear me out. 
I can't solve your life problems anyways. 
That's you.
I'm not waiting around for you, 
to never see me here. 

It's ridiculous.
I'm through making excuses up, 
just to make me feel better.
I'm done. 
I quit. 
Find someone else to be your doormat.
I am not a doormat.   
I am a stick it out 'til the end friend. 
I am smart and talented. 
I am imperfect. 
I am a girl who has a testimony. 
I am here if you need me. 
I am beautiful. 
I am this girl.